Dear Santa,
I know you me as the kid who writes you a gazillion letters every Christmas. Yeah, that's me, the good kid. Anyway, for some reason, my letters never reached you because I found them all in a box inside our storage room. I guess my mom didn't mail them after all. So im writing to you because I think you'll finally receive my letter. I just wanted to tell you that I've been a good child for the past few years. Sadly though, I'm dying tomorrow. The reason? I have no idea, I'm just dying. And since i know that you travel around the world, I decided to send my last letter to you so you can deliver all my last wishes to all the people. First of all, I want you to tell my family (the whole clan), my friends (Wawc, Woodrose and whoever) and other people who made a difference in my life that I love them so much. I know I didn't really show it and all because I was snobby and bratty most of the time, but yeah, tell them that I love them so much. I'm not really affectionate, hence the coldhearted image I always present to them. I'm just really shy and not the type, so yeah. I'm really thankful also for having them in my life. I wouldn't be the person I am today without their help and for that I'm really grateful. Im so glad that I met each and everyone of them! I also want to apologize for the times I've hurt them. Im gonna be dead anyway when they hear this so there's nothing to lose, so I wanna tell them that, yeah they were right and I was wrong. So for that, I'm sorry! If I hurt your feelings, if you feel like i was just using you guys or i was some coldhearted girl dog, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be like that. Please tell them, that I'm goin to miss them so much but not to worry because I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be brought to a much better place. I'll be in heaven, and I'll be really happy because I won't experience suffering while they still will because they're still on earth. Tell them that I'll be watching them from above and I'll be guiding them in their life. Even if im not there physically, tell them I'll visit them in their dreams, so not to worry, it's still not the end of me. Basically that's it, there are a lot of things I want to say but I just can't express them in words. I just want them to know that I love them, I'll miss them and that I'm sorry!

Secondly, for Christmas, I want you to give each of them a picture of myself when I'm lying down inside the coffin and please put a note in the back saying that "I'm always watching them." So they know that I'm still with them even if I'm dead and also so they can feel the love. :)

Also, I still hold a grudge against my foster mom in Oxford, so as part of my last wishes, please send her a water bill. And make sure it costs a lot. This is my revenge to her for not wanting me to shower when it was my last day in her house. Revenge for the time she got my towel, turned off the heater thinking that I wouldn't shower anymore. Revenge for making me shower with ice cold water and make me freeze to death in England. There, and also please send her a picture of me when I'm lying down on the coffin saying "Hey jane! I'm already dead, but I'm still here with you" :)

Anyway, that's all Santa. Please don't forget my last wishes. I'll be dead in a few hours. So, bye for now! Who knows?! Maybe I'll see you soon! :)

Lots of Love,
Chesca

IF YOU COULD ASK GOD JUST ONE QUESTION, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

I would ask....How will I die?
It's kind of sadistic, but I'm really really curious about it.

IF YOU COULD ASK A QUESTION TO ANYONE, DEAD OR ALIVE, WHAT WOULD THE QUESTION BE AND WHO WOULD YOU ASK?

I would ask Kyan Douglas...

Can you become straight and not marry your boyfriend? :))
Hahahahahahaha!